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Fear...


I was thinking about my fears and how in touch with them I am, and didn’t even notice until it was time to break out.
I say that I want my child to spread her wings and do great things, but didn't know how afraid I was of letting go.
I say that I want a man, but didn’t know how afraid I was of one leaving.
I say that I want success, but didn’t know how afraid I was of failing. Or better yet, I want success, but didn’t know how afraid I was of losing myself and Christ in the midst of climbing to the top.

I say that I want to do better in all areas in my life; family, love, relationships, character, career etc… Yet all I say is that it’s too late to change… things will always be the same…
I didn’t know how afraid I was of just taking the first step to change… then continuing on.
The question that remains, is what am I really afraid of? If I want all these great things, what is stopping me from getting to those great places?
I have the tendency to blame things on others, but learned not long ago, that it’s no one else’s fault.

I am an excellent planner and organizer, but from placing great thoughts from my head onto paper, then getting to the execution stage, that press play button is somehow deactivated before I know it. My get up and go nowadays is trash…
I believe that if I want anything in my life to change, that the process will begin with a changed mind first.

I have to know that if I want anything to change, I must just start. Just take a step and not be afraid of failing… because guess what… I will fail. I must learn that I will have to get back up and try again and again and again until that constant movement creates such a wave that things have to shift and make way.
I can just imagine the things we could do, if it weren’t for fear standing in the way keeping us from doing what our creator placed in us to do…

Isaiah 41:10
Fear not [there is nothing to fear], for I am with you; do not look around you in terror and be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen and harden you to difficulties, yes, I will help you; yes, I will hold you up and retain you with My [victorious] right hand of rightness and justice.
 

Thank you for reading. My prayer is that it touched you as it touched me! Please feel free to share this post or share an inspiring word! Remember you are the only you there is, so be good to YOU!

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