All Is Well...

Last night I went out with a friend I met at my gym. We’d been planning a movie date for about 2-3 weeks now and finally took time to actually go. I must say that I thoroughly enjoyed myself. We were supposed to view Star Wars; a movie I know nothing about, but failed to get the tickets early & of course it was sold out. We opted to see the new movie Sisters instead. Very good movie with a story line that I’m sure many could relate to this time in day.

One sister was the outgoing one with great gifts and talents, but her lifestyle and attitude was her biggest challenge. The other sister was the responsible and successful one who had her life together but always lived life with much caution. One scene the sisters was at their childhood home, in the room they shared taking turns reading their diaries. During this time, the cautious sister realized how she’d always lived life on the sideline, doing all the right things but missing out on actually living and enjoying life. Well if you’ve been following my blog for some time, you can guess which sister I related to most.

I left the movie feeling empowered, especially since this is something that I’d been thinking a lot about here lately. When we got outside the theatre we talked and shared a few things and ended the night on a positive note. We both agreed that we are in a place in our lives that we have to recognize who we are and we have to get up and move from this place. Or else things will continue to stay this way. There are a few tidbits that I received from the movie.

-       Live

-       Say what you feel

-       Be who you are and don’t be ashamed of it, even if you don’t think you’re cool

-       You are your worst critic

-        The way you look at yourself is not what others see

-       It’s good to help others but be able to admit that you need help and receive it

-       Don’t be afraid to let love in, even if it feels funny

-       #1 was don’t think for other people

Over the past 2 months I have had the greatest wake-up call. Actually, the year 2015 has been the kind of year that you just had to buckle up, dip your head and hold on for dear life. Because you were going to make, but it was sure some things that would try you to your very soul. God used the very thing I felt I needed to sustain me, to break me. I met someone that I fell for rather quickly. Beautiful smile, personality, loving spirit and oh such a cutie. I can smile now, thinking of his crazy behind. We both lived our lives, have great people around us, great things we are involved in and are both great people, one thing though is that we were both broken. Two broken people with a troubled past in search to find someone to make us feel whole. I only say that through observation… I could be wrong. One thing lead to the next, then to the next until the point where I found myself thinking, how in the world do we build from here…

I truly believe that we both felt good about one another, but there were some things in the midst that we both had to deal with on our ends. Things that we were not able to or didn’t know how to deal with together. He mustered up the courage to let me know that we wouldn’t be able to do this anymore and although it stung, I knew he was right. I wanted to be sad, but although it hurt, I still had to rejoice. During our time together, I saw things in myself that I didn’t know was there or I knew was there but didn’t know the severity of those things. So instead of going into a pity party, I faced myself towards God, placing myself on the altar, saying God it’s me in the need of prayer now. Forget everything I’ve asked for or felt I needed in life, because no matter what you bless me with if I stay this way Lord I won’t be able to enjoy the fruits of any of it.

One thing that I love about God is that He doesn’t tempt us in fact Satan does and it’s with our own desires. God is so chill with it though that He doesn’t fret, panic, jump up no nothing because He already knows His plan for our lives. Me personally, I believe that He uses the very traps that we find ourselves in, to go along with His plan. A plan that looking back on, we know that it was nothing but His hand and guidance that kept us. No matter what trials you may be facing right now just know that he knows and that His mercies are new every morning and his grace is sufficient.  Be blessed, be patient, learn to enjoy life, be honest with yourself, go after what you love and know that all is well.

All Have a Blessed and Merry Christmas. Enjoy your family and loved ones!!

Thank you for reading. My prayer is that it touched you as it touched me! Please feel free to share this post or share an inspiring word! Remember you are the only you there is, so be good to YOU!