Jessica S. Preston

Last night I went out with a friend I met at my gym. We’d been planning a movie date for about 2-3 weeks now and finally took time to actually go. I must say that I thoroughly enjoyed myself. We were supposed to view Star Wars; a movie I know nothing about, but failed to get the tickets early & of course it was sold out. We opted to see the new movie Sisters instead. Very good movie with a story line that I’m sure many could relate to this time in day. One sister was the outgoing one with great gifts and talents, but her lifestyle and attitude was her biggest challenge. The other sister was the responsible and successful one who had her life together but always lived life with much caution. One scene the sisters was at their childhood home, in the room they shared taking turns reading their diaries. During this time, the cautious sister realized how she’d always lived life on the sideline, doing all the right things but missing out on actually living and enjoying life. Well if ...

This morning on the way to drop Jordan off at school, she was like can you turn on some music... So I was like yea, but we need to start listening to some better tunes, like gospel or something more uplifting. So she said, well put on that Happy song, and I was like good choice. I played Wanna Be Happy by Kirk Franklin all the way to work and allowed it to minister to my spirit. What a perfect song it was for me this morning after what I would call a small devotion .   What a freeing feeling I had this morning. So over the past few days I’ve gotten determined that I must make a change, like foreal. I began reading the book Attitudinize and I also chose another book from my shelf called So Long Insecurity by Beth Moore. I’ve had this book for about a year now… well I just looked at the receipt and it’s been over a year. Anywho, when I bought the book I bought it with about 4 other books. Some women buy shoes and purses, I buy food, journals and books; lots of them. So after I ...

I was just thinking about something... I've noticed that I've been settling for scraps… I want to say that it’s all because I am afraid of expecting something from someone that I may not receive. Then too it may be that I’m not sure of my worth or if I deserve what it is that I desire. Over time, I've learned to accept people for who they are, where they are, excusing what would normally be inexcusable behavior; thinking I’m not perfect so don’t expect perfection from someone else... that’s the perfect excuse right? I mean, I’m not knocking any of the things I tell myself or hear other women saying, because I know that everyone has something going on. But when it comes down to relationships I just noticed that there are some things that I've been exposed to & have become used to that I don’t require when it comes to being in a relationship. I didn't grow up in the same house as my dad, but I was always with him as a young girl well into my adult years. Ther...