Jessica S. Preston

I received a text earlier with the following scripture: Romans 5:3-5; not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not put us to shame (disappoint) , because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us. I read the text and went about my day... When I went back to read this I thought our hope comes from something that we have seen in our spirit. A glimpse of our future. This is the reason why we hope in it and get excited about it. Something about what we saw, we connected with and believed it was possible. It’s the delay of the manifestation of what we saw in our spirits that causes us to grow weary. What we saw, we saw it so clearly, but what we didn’t see were the things that were going to be in the middle. We didn’t see the growing that we would have to endure or the things we would have to experie...

Earlier today, as I was coming back from my lunch break, I believe I received a Word... Whatever breakthrough is coming, is going to be real; real big! I just thought to myself that I can't see anything else that could come out of this! Lately I’ve been in a place that has caused much discouragement and it tells me that this is how it will be... At this moment though something happened... You know how it is when you snap, or when you come to yourself and you get real still… it’s something that happens all of a sudden, and if not paying attention, you wouldn't notice it... but you stop and realize, something else is taking place! It’s not what’s happening, such as your spouse, boss, or kids acting up, finances being out of whack, emotions out of whack, people leaving or coming… it’s not what’s seen but it’s something taking place on another level that we cannot see. Things are being shaken, tossed and turned, and just moved all around. I am re...

I'm writing just in case someone is feeling a little defeated... I hope this helps... I remember maybe about 3 years ago, I had an interview at a hospital as an intake specialist... basically I would handle incoming referrals for new and continuing patients. I knew when I heard the description of the job, it was not what I wanted. I was just so driven by the idea of getting my foot in the door and leaving where I was, that I was willing to accept the position. Heading to the office where the interview was held, I passed a door marked Communications, Marketing & Public Affairs. I thought to myself, that would be a cool place to work. Even on my way out, I said that I should stop in and see if there were any positions available... well I didn't but still thought it would be cool... I didn't get the job I interviewed for and was not sad about it at all. Later on I did apply for another position in the same area with a different coorporation and was hired on. Not long a...

It always amazes me how far I've come & how far I still have to go. I find myself vacillating between who I want to become & the me I'm still trying to overcome. I know that in the word Jesus says "I have overcome the world, so be of good cheer", but what happens when you still find yourself wrestling with old habits?   You swear one moment I'm done, then the next moment you're right back in that thing... It's not that you didn't mean it the first time, sometimes you find it hard to separate yourself from it; whatever it may be. Im not sure if that's what is considered as a soul tie or what... Sometimes I wish I could just leave it all alone, but there is something there that still calls me... To be honest there is a part of me that still desires, part of me just wants to sit back and look & part of me still see the good in it although there are many bad memories & there's part of me who wonder will it be any good in the ...

So I must say that this weekend was a much needed blessing and in disguise might I add. When I say in disguise, I really mean that I didn’t see it coming. I really wasn’t expecting it. I knew that I would be going home and speaking as a panel guest at Ultimate Connections Annual Girl Talk “Girl I Like Your Style”. The Blessing that came with it was amazing. Honestly speaking the last few times I visited home, it hasn’t been so pleasant. I was always in some type of disarray for whatever the reason and I wouldn’t enjoy it… I can remember before leaving my home the night before, some thought came in my mind, and immediately following the thought I said aloud, “I’m not mad anymore”. Didn’t really know why of all things, I said that but, I just said I’m not mad anymore… Well I take that back, I do know why I said it. After learning a few things with my brother, I saw how his words and actions hurt another person, and I saw myself. I wondered, is that what I’m like? After giving it som...