Jessica S. Preston

Have you ever found yourself holding onto something that was no longer there... only you never realized it until now? This is me right now, and this letter was written in my personal journal and spoken aloud from my mouth. I am sharing this to others who may be experiencing something somewhat the same. Just simply replace my words and thoughts as your own. I love you and be blessed. Ever since Jordan was born or back up, was learned of to be expected, I placed my value in your hands. Depending upon whether or not you accepted & chose me or not. I wanted so long for you to choose me & eventually your daughter. To have & to hold & to cherish in that special place in your heart. Over & over you didn't choose me nor her. I placed my value as a woman & as a mother in your hands & even as a possible mate in your hands unknowingly. I thought that if only this or that, he would choose us. 12 years in the game, that day never came. The ties I have with yo...

Girl, what have you been up to? It's been too long... If you don't stop. It's been like two days... (laugh out loud) I know. It just seems like forever. Girl you are a mess! What's going on though. You got me out in this rain, and it's cold. We could've met at your house or something. Girl, you know I try to get out of the house as much as I can. Plus I wanted to sport my new necklace and jacket... why not now?? I did notice it mam. I was about to ask to borrow it, but since it's new... I'll let you make... for today anyhow. I will say though, that I love me some Olive Garden and I'm glad you got me out for a bit! Well... about that... girl to be honest, there's another reason I wanted to see you... Oh Lord... what happened now? Is everything ok? (Slides over phone) (Sigh) Correct me if I'm wrong, but aren't ya'll supposed to have a thing going on... I mean I know you mention him every once in a while, but by the looks of thin...